Should I give up?

 

Sometime we just need to write everything down, everything would be

so clear!!

I have never known how emotional and unhappy I was all these while.

I thought I could or I am moving into our new chapter of life, sadly it 

does not seem so.

I have lowered my expectation or sometime no expectation because

expectation hurts.  Yet, he kept reminding me the past.  He is still living 

in the past, biting like a “bitch”, repeating the history and he has no idea 

how irritated and pissed is me.

I have never once brought up the dissatisfaction about him after we have 
decided to continue with our new chapter of life.  He never changed as 

what he has promised.  He is worse than before and I never complain.

Why?  Because I gave my words, I am going to start a new chapter of 
life with him.  

What is wrong with him??

Should I give up on him??

Emotion

Assets & Liabilities comparison, you are victorious! Hard cash calculation, you are superior! This does not deprive me from enjoyment or possession you have had. In fact, I am pretty sure I am happier than you; I live my life to fullest, realistic, face all consequences and deal with it!!

This picture was screenshot from my DAYRE - https://dayre.me/pennywhl

I was emotional alright!

Why would anyone want to make one feel less value?

Or why would I want to start comparing?

Shakespeare said:

I always feel happy, you know why?

Because I don’t expect anything from anyone, expectation hurts.

Life is short, so love your life.

Be happy and keep smiling. 
Just live for yourself & before you speak, listen.

Before you write, think.

Before you spend, earn.

Before you hurt, feel.

Before you hate, love.

Before you quit, try.

Before you die, live.

How easily translated!

"10 years" multiply by 5

Suddenly i felt so emotional and lonely, wrote this to the love of my life through whatsapp...

The first 10 years; I could only remember rambutan, jambu and mango trees.
The second 10 years; studies, shadow of teachers and words on the blackboard.
The third 10 years; we are busy with our creation.
The fourth 10 years; we found each other – together we walk the path ahead of us.
The fifth 10 years; we are certain that the next chapter shall be about us!!

You wanna know what is his reaction?

My advice ... do not do this kind of stuff from whatsapp!!  lolx

Building Blocks

 

It's obviously everyone would say .. I valued my life; this is definitely not in my priority list.

I have so many things better to attend than doing this! 

Parents gave children blocks to play as it has many benefits for children including physical, social intellectual and language development.  

So, I am no longer “children” why would I ever want to play with blocks?  

Having these thoughts for so long, and somehow I have decided to give it a try ...

Well, it doesn’t matter how old are you.  As long as you are willing to learn and you are still learning.  When you “play blocks”, you are developing all these:

Concepts & skills

Having fun & enjoyment

Exploring & discovering

Experiencing & taking risk

Finding opportunities or collaborating

Repeating & practicing

Building creativity & confidence

At the end, you may improvise – then your problem-solving skill may eventually escalate to next level.   

I felt great!!

Hate

Hate is a strong word to use, and yet nothing better to describe using “Hate”, right?

How else would I express my dislike, hatred and odium?

Can “you disgust me” give us the same effect as “I hate you”?

Which “you disgust me” simply mean you make me sick.

Perhaps “I am disgusted with you” is closer effect to “I hate you”.

The person who you hated always knew exactly who and why you hated him.

He will continue making you to hate him more, that’s his ultimate objective.

The look in his eyes, the satisfaction of how he has made someone hated him.

You may shout out loud … DEMON.

Yes, he is evil!!

It is a trauma to hate someone.

When you hate someone, you are injuring your body.

You should be starting with dislike, resentful and then agony, hurt and later vengeful, and worst you became pitiless.

It is someone insults our dignity or we find it unacceptable, it is anger that we are experiencing, not hatred. 

Love your body, stop hating someone!!

BTW - Will this happen ~ from hate to love?

Luck

 

Luck is good fortune which occurs beyond one’s control, without regard to one’s will, intention, or desired result.

Why am I talking about “Luck”? 

It all started on September 22, 2011 where my car skidded on highway.  You must shout out loud that I must be driven too fast.  Yes, I did. 

September 24, 2011 – my daughter came up with high fever.  The fever has lasted for 4 days.  She was admitted to hospital on September 27, 2011 and diagnosed with “Dengue”.  It was worrying as she was transfer to ICU (Intensive care unit) when her Platte kept dropping.  She discharged from hospital on September 30, 2011.

October 2, 2011 – 1 day reunited as family, happy family and here we have my son admitted to hospital, diagnosed with “appendicitis”.  Operation needed, removed and a little complication as it’s burst before the surgery.  He was discharged from hospital on Oct 7, 2011.

My daughter was absent from school under the advice of doctor.  She was back to school on October 23, 2011 (Monday).  On October 25, 2011 (Wednesday), she was knocked hard on her forehead, as her Bus Drive collided with oncoming car.  I nearly fainted when my husband called me in office.

Same day, neighbor hit my car which was driven by my son.

Someone told us that we are in such a bad luck, the things and environment has changed so much and the “fong sui” is changing around us too.

Don’t you see? I am blessed and so lucky!

My car skidded, god answered to my prayers, it stopped the minutes I shouted STOP.

My daughter has “dengue” and she went through without any complication.

My son has his appendicitis removed in October month, not November because he will be having his SPM examination then.

My daughter’s car accident was a minor, one of her friend lost her tooth.

My son’s car hit and our car does not show any scratches but the car that hit us, the bumper drop off.

I am so LUCKY …..

Err .. by the way, where do I get these Lucky Charms Cereal??

Definitely not selling in here!!

The Best of everything

Everyone wants and deserves a better life.

What do you have to do to develop more self-confidence, better self-esteem and greater internal motivation to be the best?

It all starts with how you think.

I was once told to create a dream which will helps you to improve in your life.  My dreams are living in better life than what currently have.  Not only dream, you have to engage your heart, mind, body and spirit in everything you do and find a higher level of satisfaction, joy and creativity.  I have never understood what all these crab about, really, I don't have a clue.  

Have you ever felt that you are drifting through life, and not going where you want to go?

How am I supposed to discover my real purpose in life?  Was it measure by my job, my daily responsibilities or my long term goals?

None of the above really matters now.  My precious, my goals, my achievements will be my 4 lovely, wonderful children.....